About Jill :)

What is a good birthday celebration?

2006-08-01T00:42:00.000+08:00

I used to dream about how grand my 21st birthday celebration would be. So initially, I thought having a small celebration would be equal to not having one at all. Well, obviously I was wrong!

On Sunday, I had a nice, not so quiet steamboat dinner at my home.....courtesy of my grandma! My family, grandparents, Ee-Pat, Teo-Teo, my cousins and their friend, & my grandaunts were all there. So it was a really cosy get-together :)

Today, was supposed to be Aunty Margaret's b'day celebration. But surprise surprise! It turned out to be for me as well! ....courtesy of Aunty Jhennifer. My family, Aunty Margaret's family [including Sean & Aunty Maria :)...], and Aunty Jhen's family were present. So that was another lovely celebration!

I realised that I cherished the celebration more by being in the company of all my loved ones.....rather than having many guests at one big party. With the expected crowd, there would be a lack of intimacy....so no warm cosy feeling!
Besides, I'd get to keep my ang paos & celebrate many times over!
So actually, it's a win-win solution ;)

because I liked the view

2006-07-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

being infatuated with someone, & not being able to express it really eats away at me. I can't avoid him, because he's a nice friend to have. but whenever I talk to him, my insides start to jump. Then I'll start feeling wistful & dreaming about 'what if...'
The worst is that, I've been feeling this way for the longest time.
It's terrible & absolutely useless.

shopping is my vice

2006-07-15T01:49:00.000+08:00

Before, when I saw something I liked, I bought it without thinking whether or not I'd have a use for it. Now I have a mental defence mechanism. It sets off an alarm reminding me of all the times when I stupidly spent my $$. But seeing these adorable stuff makes me so sad. B'cos I'm torn between whether to get them or not.
especially the cherry pin :( damn, it's cute!!

Image courtesy of myspringfling http://myspringfling.livejournal.com

Image courtesy of sew-pursenal http://sew-pursenal.livejournal.com

aahhh! I love the sophie and anne clutches!

At $28, how can a girly-girl like me resist it?!!!

It's really pretty, & I'm sooo sad!

yeap! :( shopping: my biggest vice

singing is exhausting!

2006-07-14T12:14:00.000+08:00

On wednesday, I went to aunty Margaret's place, hoping to join in the singing practice for a surprise celebration. Little did I know, I was in for a major 'singing technique overhaul'. She attempted to make me throw out my voice, which at first was futile. So she made me lie on the floor to sing! Now imagine lying on the floor, half-singing & laughing.....with a maid, a granny, and Martin looking at you?!! I must have been quite a ridiculous sight. Thank God that worked....otherwise, who knows what else she'd make me do! She made me sing so many songs, till my face and ears were red. After that, I really learnt to throw out my voice & enunciate better. Perhaps, with the cane constantly waved in front of me, I didn't have much of a choice.

Despite all the crazy things that she does, I still adore aunty Margaret....
& I think the feeling is mutual :)

KC get-together...

2006-07-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

This was held at Yajun's place. Thanks Esther for the photos...

Liberation :)))

2006-07-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

I'm free from attachments! no more working in that hot, sweaty, messy place! All glory to God!!!! I am SO HAPPY!! ELATED! OVERJOYED! ahahahaha....all that effort certainly did not go to waste. It's true when the Bible says that "...do not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time you will reap a harvest" [I think that's what it said]

And.....to celebrate, I'm going out with my dear Cheryl! yaaay! :)) ben & jerry's here we come! :p

I want a new template!!

2006-05-17T02:21:00.000+08:00

With all that stuff behind, reading posts is difficult... soon I'll get a new one :) something plain and reader friendly. hmmm, two posts at once, goes to show i'm really bored, & definitely not sleepy!

Insomnia, or simply thinking too much?

2006-05-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

For a few nights now, I've not been able to sleep early. Primarily because I think about a lot of stuff, which keeps me awake till odd hours. So here are the problems.....
1. I was pondering what Nikki told me last Friday [but that's another story]
2. How long will my attachment last??
3. Career choice: should I work at the New Horizon Centre, or at a hospital?
-I'm in a dilemma because if I start my career at a step-down facility like New Horizon [it's a day care centre for people with dementia and stroke], it will be near impossible to return to work as a clinical nurse.
-Nursing is such that it requires a lot of practice & hands on experience. But after having attachments & seeing how the nurses work, I can't see myself doing that kind of work. and I'm afraid of what would happen should I even start working in the ward.

2006-04-08T03:52:00.000+08:00

The bag i want
but can't have....sob!

2006-04-08T03:42:00.000+08:00

From left: me, Sara, Rachel......stuffed, & still stuffing

PRCP?!

2006-04-08T03:01:00.000+08:00

I'm having my last attachment for these 3 years of studying nursing. It's called Pre-Registration Consolidation Placement [PRCP]. I'm in a high stress ward. For the past two weeks i've been a complete blundering fool!! urgh! most of the mistakes are due to carelessness, & the rest are b'cos i'm doing things too slowly!

I've told God, if i'm able to graduate, it would be a REAL miracle,
& I'd be a LIVING TESTIMONY. b'cos that would mean He's transformed me from a blundering idiot, to someone who's capable and efficient.
I must testify though that God HAS done several miracles in my life, & He has not failed me even once. For that i'm ever thankful. But i'm afraid that i'd fail Him instead. I'm hoping against hope that my dark days will brighten by mid of next week.

Why do I feel so sad...

2006-03-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

When I'm involved in a quarrel, it makes me terribly angry. but if I witness a quarrel/ argument/...whatever, I feel uncomfortable. Especially if I see my parents argue, it makes me feel unusually sad.
Ok, I'll admit it, that's not the only reason I'm sad. The other being that the person i admired has a girlfriend. awww!!

Anyway, on a lighter note, uncle Eddie's family and my family went for teochew dinner.
and these are some of the photos we took :)

....there's something wrong with the picture uploading system. I'll upload the rest tmr...

2006-03-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

My previous Johari window had an error, so this is the new one
http://kevan.org/johari?name=ciyunjill
I'll not be using the others [two to be exact...] Thanks to those who've contributed to the Johari window :)

2006-03-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

Why do I have to dream about you?
& why do I miss you?

Re-making my blog

2006-03-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

Wheeee! I like my new blog layout! So much nicer than the last one!
Credits for re-making it go to Rachel, who used photoshop! I think she's a tech wizard :) [her blog got destroyed whilst she was doing mine, aiya!]
Eh, more people must do the Johari window.

Contribute to my Johari Window :)

2006-03-08T15:50:00.000+08:00

Hey people, I'd appreciate it if you would put in what you think of me. Perhaps you too would like to create a Johari Window. http://kevan.org/johari?name=JillCiyun

Thanks! :-)

After 2 weeks at cgh....

2006-02-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

I just ended two weeks of posting at cgh's geriatric ward. & i'm so glad it's over, cos it's tiring. Walking around all day gave me back aches & feet aches.

Last night, I slogged from 5pm till 3 this morning just for the case study! Considering it was done at the last minute, it's surprising that Ms Khatijah thought that mine was the best. I think it's not really just that it's more complete. She gave me cadbury chocolate as a reward! Each little bar has got these yummy centres that ooze different flavours
....orange, caramel, strawberry :)

The gerontology attachment was quite an eye opener. Also, I managed to brush up on a few clinical skills, & to learn some others. This morning a patient passed away, so the staff nurse, my friend & I did last office for him. It's a humbling experience.

ROUGE BAGS!!! oooh, I really love them :) they're so feminine, colourful, & some are actually cute! :D pity though, i'm not able to buy them. I'm grounded from shopping :(
I like the Castellon, Calico Mary Alex Bag, the Seville, the Barcelona and the brown Elysee.
& if I could, I'd buy them all! i know, extravagant...

New year resolutions??

2006-01-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

I realise that I'm lousy when it comes to keeping new year resolutions. Should just forget all that I've resolved to do & come up with a new one.....to fulfill my new year resolutions. School's been fun lately, as I'm mainly doing sociology, psychology & management in nursing this term. Moreover, my lecturers are nice! yaay :) But I'm getting closer to the dreaded PRCP as the days pass.....It may be an exaggeration, but somehow PRCP is like a death sentence :p

Here comes 2006!

2006-01-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

On new year's eve, we went to Olio at Suntec for dinner with Melissa's family & auntie Dancy's family. I bet with my dad that I could finish a glass of red wine....& won $5! haha! The food was not bad, but i bet there's more value for money at the Sakura buffet place. After dinner we went to Melissa's home for the new year's countdown. It was quite a fun night.
oooh! Christmas was better! I went to auntie Margaret's house. The Devil's curry was especially hot....I've never tried anything so spicy! Dominic's cousins were there. I didn't get to talk to them. But they certainly were good eye candy ;-) ....well, that ends 2005.

With a new year, there must be new resolutions. These are mine....

1. Spiritual: Find a church. Attend church & cell group regularly.
Be able to learn & grow in Christ. Be baptised as soon as I'm ready.

2. School: Do work faster, & more systemically. Study smarter. Improve my grades.

3. Exercise: Attempt to exercise at least three times a week.
& to drink 2-3 bottles of water a day.

4. Shopping: shop for more stuff....actually that's a yearly resolution. haha :)

My attachments [continued]

2006-01-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

So after I went to CGH's A&E, then it was SGH for Operating Theatre. I saw all kinds of things in OT...intestines, hernias, cysts, cysts with hair...wow. Then went to IMH for two weeks. The crux of the posting is being able to treat a mental patient as you would a normal person. That is easier said than done. I found it a very humbling experience to work with mental patients.
Each time before I start posting, I dread going for it. But after I finish, I'm always glad I went, as there were lessons to be learnt.

My attachments

2005-12-18T17:52:00.000+08:00

Well! It's been some time since I've blogged....during that time I was away, I have been doing attachment at CGH & SGH. That really was a memorable learning experience. I've realised that doctors don't have to be stuffy, old fogeys. The ones I met were friendly. & the young doctors...quite nice looking. Trust me, that's not the only thing I've learnt....
Elaboration would have to come later.....I'm going out!

swings

2005-11-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

Went to Changi beach this afternoon... They have playgrounds there, with the stuff I like best- swings! Sitting on a swing makes me feel so alive!! There's wind blowing in my face, & when I swing high enough, I catch a glimpse of the clouds. I like to swing really high, & as it goes forward....whoosh! & I get butterflies in my tummy! Makes me feel like a child again.
Honestly, sometimes I don't believe how old I am.

Jill is...

2005-11-26T17:13:00.000+08:00

I love reading home&decor and country decor magazines. I'm inspired just by looking at the pictures! It sets me dreaming about how I'd do up my home. I love stores like Ikea & Picket & Rail. For the more quirky stuff, Lim's Art & Living is a good place to go. I could go on about this....but, nah! It'll be so meleteh [long-winded].

When I think about what my peers would blog about, designing houses certainly would not be their topic of choice. Which makes me seem quite queer....& different. No wonder my friends think I'm 'ancient'.

I watched the movie version of The Phantom of the Opera, & am really captivated! The lyrics, music & plot are all so....beautiful! [suddenly I'm lost for words] I'm sure the theatre production would have been better, but for a movie, this is good. Watch it for yourself & you'll realise why.

I like makan....but no kakis lah!

2005-11-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

Makansutra is like an institution on all things delicious & drool-worthy [seetoh, is not drool-worthy]. Imagine all the scrumptious food! I'm so happy I live in Singapore. Delicious food, is best savoured [or devoured] with friends &/or family. If got fun company, even better! Sadly, my friends are either busy or not a foodie like me....so I'm left with no kaki. aiyah! sad ya...
Whoever reads this, if you're interested to go on a food trail, or to just be a kaki, tag this post & leave your contact ok?

Chapalang fashionista

2005-11-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

I think I'll proclaim myself the 'Chapalang Fashionista'....
chapalang cos i get my inspiration for clothes from....practically everywhere?!
ya! I really love dressing up, it's a lot of fun. I see it as an extension of my personality.

Actually olden day nyonyas led quite a 'chapalang' lifestyle too....in the sense that it was eclectic. Their clothes, crockery, food & mannerisms were a fusion of mainly Malay and Chinese influences. They took aspects of both cultures, blended it & made the culture something that's all their own.

Which is why I like being nyonya....because it's eclectic. Haha! :)

Food is a glorious thing...

2005-11-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

Food really is a glorious thing...ahh! Imagine a hot piping bowl of Mee Soto from Adam Rd....with the delicious smells wafting through your nostrils. Yes, I'm very passionate about food. But how can anyone not be, when we are situated in Singapore??? It's food central!! Every which way one turns, one sees food...some with tantalising smells, & some not. I am especially excited if it's Nyonya kueh :)

Fabulous!!!

2005-11-15T21:32:00.001+08:00

I was watching "Stuck in the Suburbs" & this came to mind....
that you're only as fabulous as you think you are.
One does not need others to say it, to think so.
What is necessary is the love for oneself, confidence...& perhaps some degree of self-centredness. Hmm, that's a point for contention...
Nonetheless, I think it's important that everyone has it.

again...

2005-11-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

Something happened to the previous blog i started. Hope all goes well with this one...